This is the first photo from my final project. It is part of the threefold concept that I have come up with, part of it is large prints from large format photos, always with my alter ego Chris Winston in place, another part consists of his Facebook page and the final, most perverse part is in the form of a website where the videos of the security cameras are posted as a sort of reality TV show, but online, so much more…err… intense.
“I am surrounded by a world of nothingness. I live in a nondescript space where everything white could as well be black. I entered this realm a long time ago and now I am its prisoner. Is this a bad drug trip? Am I in some sort of coma where my life is nothing but this emptiness? Sometimes people come into my space, but it feels like they’re only there to torment me. Sadly, the physical abuse is the only thing that keeps me more or less sane, it makes me feel I’m alive. I take the punishment, I stopped asking questions a long time ago.
I remember nothing of what life was like before I came here. That is why I am convinced this is a drug trip, a hallucination that maybe only takes 5 seconds in real life but which seems to last forever. Yes, that must be it. I am actually lying in a hospital bed somewhere, wearing a nappy that’s overflowing with day-old shit (an understaffed hospital, you see!) and some caring friend or family member by my side (not that I can remember any), reading me from my favourite porno magazine…
…And the cock entered the opening and all was well in Lala-land…
/Chris”
